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Uncategorized February 21st, 2005
Two months ago signaled the end of the year. Like many others I began to review the events of 2004. It truly seems as though that was my year. A new truck, a new girl, a 25th birthday, and a new house. It truly is a brand new me. What a pleasant surprise it was when I discovered that this new me is happier, centered, and motivated.
Is it odd to mention this when it’s nearing the end of February? I don’t think so. An evaluation like this should take some time. What have I got? In addition to what I listed above (and of which, items such as a car and a house are much more than materialistic check marks) I realized that I know some amazing people.
It seemed as though most everyone I knew, who called each other friends, were anything but. To hear the way people talked about each other and laughed at each other and seemingly frequently intentionally harmed one another made me ill. Is that how a friend should treat another friend? And it stood to reason, in my mind at least, that if these friends talked about each other in this manner that they talked about me in the same way when I wasn’t there. This is what led me to the theory the friends were simply people to hang out with and nothing more. Now this theory left me disturbed and disillusioned. I had always placed a great deal of import and value on the concept of friendship.
Then I had decided that not all people could be like that, it was just some of the people I knew. This, I think, is more accurate. Consider Rich. An excellent guy, and one whom I considered one of my best friends until I realized that it had been about seven years since I’ve had anyone to consider a best friend, leaving him as my best friend. And Andrew, who is quite possibly the most thoughtful person I know (after Jenny, of course). Doug and his sweet girlfriend Kim. Clark and Zaina too, in all her cuteness. These are the people I feel I can trust, these are the people I can talk to without fear. I’m sure there’s a couple people I’ve left out, but these are who comes to mind. To have these people is liberating like I could not guess.
It’s also worth mentioning that the seed of cynicism had long been planted and was growing quite steadily at this point. I knew I was cynical, but considered this to equate to being realistic. As it turned out, I was far far from being realistic and instead this cynicism only took out a lot that I could enjoy. Having dashed that, I think, contributed much to this new version.
So here I am, Spring cleaning. Too long I was patient and forgiving and while these are both excellent qualities that everyone should have, they can be extended too far and result in anger and resentment – much for me, and also for other people. So sorry kids, I don’t mean to offend but I decided a while ago not to tolerate and put with everything I had to before and now I have the means.
There’s your introduction, let’s see where I go.
Also, I love the comma.
I must, admit that I’m, a fan of the, comma too.
I’m glad to count you and Jenny among friends, and people that come to game night, its a pleasure hanging out/gaming with you both.
I’m not even sure when it came to pass that you were someone I had hung out with in crowds several times to someone I invited over, but I’m glad it happened.
You’re a cool cat and a good egg.
i heard the comma loves you
you can have adorable comma babies!